“I’m looking out from inside the chaos. It must be a one-way mirror because no one seems to be able to see back inside to where I am. The looks on their faces, the judgment in their eyes, tells me everything I need to know. The most frustrating part about the whole messed up situation is that even though I’m the one that they stare at in shock, I am just as shocked as they are. I know no more than they do of why I lose control. What they don’t know is that I am more scared of myself than they could ever be.” ~ Tally Baker After a devastating turn of events, seventeen year old Tally Baker is admitted to Mercy Psychiatric Facility where she is diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder. She has come to a place where she honestly believes that her life is over. Her mind tells her that she will never smile or laugh again, that she will never be normal again. It is in this unlikely place that she meets two people, different in every way, yet both critical to helping her realize that she has so much more living to do. Candy, a cantankerous sixty year old Mercy Psychiatric patient, is hell bent on driving everyone as crazy as she is. Candy shows Tally that, regardless of her diagnosis, the ability to push on and live her life to the fullest is her choice and hers alone. In the midst of Tally’s oftentimes humorous, sometimes heart-wrenching, escapades with Candy, a new patient is admitted to Mercy—a Native American woman named Lolotea. Along with this new patient comes a daily visitor, her son, Trey Swift. At first glance, it is obvious to Tally that he is incredibly handsome and unbelievably caring. But what she learns through her second glance, and many thereafter, is that there is much more to Trey than he ever lets on. It is during these daily visits that Trey and Tally build a friendship far deeper than either of them truly realize. With Trey, Tally feels for the first time since being admitted that someone is looking at her as a person and not as a disease. Trey begins to make it clear that he wants more than friendship, but she knows that she can never give him more. How can she, when she won’t even give him the truth? Tally doesn’t tell Trey that she is a patient at Mercy, and she doesn’t ever plan to. Her plans go up in flames when she finds out that Trey is a new student at her school, the school where her brokenness was found out in the floor of the girl’s bathroom in a pool of her own blood.
What an amazing book by Quinn Loftis.I think whats most amazing is it is about mental illness in teens and the fact that it shows Tally at her lowest and it shows that she is able to live with it.The story shows that this is not all rainbows and butterfly's but a day to day thing.I loved Trey.I think if there were more guys like him in the world,The world would be a better place.What a strong young man.Candy was hilarious.Quinn was able to take a very hard subject and make Candy run with it and make the book have laughter in it.I was so angry at Tally's parents through the entire book,What parents do that?I loved this book from start to finish.I think what touched me the most was at end of the book Quinn wrote that she dealt with Bi-Polar Disorder and that writing this book she brings mental disorders to light.She makes you realize others are dealing with these issues when you think you are alone in the world.You in fact are not.Major Kudos to Quinn for being brave and writing this book.I know it had to have been hard on her.This is a MUST read.A Must.